ALOHA & WELCOME

Before Bradds, I was technically alive. 

But I wasn’t here. Not really. I lived with a film over my eyes taking the brilliance out of my frame.

Then Braddah came into my life and demanded needs greater than I was capable of giving to myself. The struggle in loving him through my stories and frustrations slowly shifted the needs I had for myself. Including this aching “need” I swore I had… to separate myself from this life. As a kind gesture for the part of me that was hurting.

Towards the end of Bradds life, new questions started to haunt my thoughts: “How am I still alive? What has he changed in my body?” I may be slow to decide, but once I’ve decided on something, it’s happening. I couldn’t comprehend how I was still around.

Even later, after losing him, those questions shifted again to a more interesting one: “How can I repeat what he did for myself?” I did, after all, make him a promise as I was holding him for his last breath. It wasn’t only to not kill myself. I, like a naive dumbass, promised him I’d learn how to live and LOVE the life I have with the body I am in.

It’s different to comprehend how simply asking a better question can change your whole life because the reality is that the changes were small. Almost unnoticeable until things began to accumulate. 

This question sent me into a strange and seemingly random spiral of study, practice and experimentation. Everything I explore, including art, Nature, & being goofy keeps pointing me back to one thing:

There’s nothing wrong with you. You are not broken. You are highly adaptive.

Now my hopes are this humble little site, about a woman, a dog, a doll, art, stories, Yoga Nidra / NSDR, breathwork, Nature and movement can become a container or place for others to explore what might happen if you stop trying to fix or optimize yourself and you start listening to your (sometimes unmet) needs instead. What would happen if you became more familiar with the body you are already living in?

May my mess of being a complicated imperfect human give you some grace with whatever your mess might be. I’m just someone who learned… accidentally… how to stay and squeeze a little more outta life.

Underneath all I offer here, as random as it may seem, there is one driving force:

To spread Braddah’s love in as many ways as possible.

So if you’re here ‘cause you only love my Nidra’s, or if you’re a fan of my traveling companion & Photography, or if you find Braddah as irresistible as I do… the main goal is to create Braddah’s Gallery to the extent of my wacky imagination.

Why that of all goals? I dunno yet. Maybe that’s something we discover together on the way there. All I know is this is all for Big Bradds.

Enjoy whatever brought you here. May your curiosity lead you to something wildly different… depending on how many bites you wanna take. It’s a little weird in here.

However you got mixed into the batter… Aloha & Welcome to Waffle!

Much Love,
Robbie & Big Bradds

PS. FULL DISCLOSURE: Some of my products & posts contain ADULT LANGUAGE. If you don’t like that sort of thang, no worries. This site may not be right for you. Thank you for stopping by and giving me a taste.